- 8 years ago
I will apologize in advance that this post is so long, but I need to get it all out.
So I am feeling quite lost, overwhelmed, anxious, yaddayadda.
So here’s the history. I have spent the last four years working full-time and going to school towards my AA degree. I graduated in June of this year with the intention of going on to get my Bachelor’s in Elementary Education. I met with the advisor at the University I wanted to go to and left the meeting feeling completely hopeless. The Bachelor’s program was going to cost more than double what I was expecting. The outlook for teachers here is not good. Last year they laid off 500 new teachers and they have placed a hiring freeze. Starting salary for teachers is around 31K here, and many teacher’s don’t reach the 40K mark until after 10 years of employment.
My future hubby owns a custom paint and body business. Business has not been good lately. Although he is going back to school, I am planning for my future based on our current circumstances. I don’t want to count on him making gobbs of money in the future, because in this economy is just isn’t realistic to count on anything anymore. I am the bread winner most of the time. That being said, a 35K salary would not allow us to live the kind of life we want for our family. Now don’t misunderstand me. I don’t want to drive a BMW or own a big fancy house, but I do want enough of an income to live comfortably without worrying about our finances, and be able to do things with our children and take vacations.
So after leaving the meeting, and weighing my options, I did a re-evaluation of my plans. I came to the conclusion that I would rather be in a job I like, that makes me financially secure and stable versus being in a job I love, but doesn’t provide for my family. This decision led me to nursing. I knew I always wanted to work with kids, and if I couldn’t be a teacher, pediatric nursing seemed like the next option. Nursing jobs are in abundance, the pay is very rewarding, and there is lots of room for advancement and variety.
I signed up for one of the classes I would need to take in order to apply to the nursing program here. I am two weeks into the class and am ALREADY feeling overwhelmed. I am understanding the material, but to be honest my brain is SPAM. I am fried. Burnt to a crisp. I have been in school for so long, without breaks, and I am just beyond burnt out. I want to drop the class and breathe for a little bit. But yet, I feel so incredibly guilty about it.
Is it wrong of me to give up and withdrawal from the course? Or do I need the break to keep my sanity? I keep thinking taking the semester off would give me time to exhale a little, and recharge my batteries, but my inner demons tell me it’s being weak and that I should just push through.
I love the hive, and I adore having this community of very supportive women who are always there for advice. It is like my second family 🙂 I would appreciate any advice, virtual hugs, kicks in the hiney you wish to dose out!