Post # 1
I am suffering very bad from anxiety and depression. This has been going on for 3 years. I have had ups and downs over the last few years but when I go down I go down real far. That is where I am at now. I have chest pains, heart palps, panic and attacks and I am petrified of doctors and medications. My doc has tried to get me on medications for the last few years and I am afraid to take it. I literally feel like I am dying. I have no friends and my family doesnt bother with me anymore because they are so tired of it. I feel like I am in a bottomless pit and I dont know how to pull myself out. Has anyone else ever suffered from this or know anyone who has. I need help but I am just so afraid of everything. I am scared if I continue on this path I will really die from putting my body through this all of the time.
Post # 3
@ashley99: ((Hugs)) Take a deep breath. You need to get some professional counseling to help you with all of this. It’s a lot to deal with all on your own, and going alone on it just puts you through unnecessary pain and suffering. I understand that taking medication is scary as hell, but I promise you that if you and your therapist decide that it is what you need to do, it will be okay. Better than okay even. It isn’t meant as a cure, nor should it turn you into a totally different person from who you are. Medication adjusts your brain chemistry enough that you can begin to work on life without constantly suffering. It’s okay to be afraid, but you can’t let that fear control you. Acknowledge it then move forward and take care of YOU.
I suffer from major depression, and I’ve gone through a really rough ride since being diagnosed over 10 years ago. Therapy helped me not only get through life but also gave me great tools to be able to live with depression. There have been times that I needed the help of medication. I’m currently on effexor. It literally saved my life when I started back on it over a year ago. It didn’t make the root causes of my issues go away, but I was able to sleep, actually get out of bed, eat, and not spend days and days just huddled in a heap fighting against the urge to kill myself.
You can do this! It’s in you; I promise. If you need an ear, please don’t hesitate to message me. ((Hugs)) again. It will be okay, honey. Trust in that.
Post # 4
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@ashley99: oh I’m so sorry! This is what my Fiance is going through right now too 🙁 Please PLEASE consider going on some medication. If your cholestrol or thyroid chemistry was off, you’d take medicine, right? So why not take something that will help straighten out your ill brain chemistry? It can literally be a lifesaver. xoxox
Post # 5
Thank you all for your kind words. I have an appt with my doc on Tuesday so i will start with the meds then. They cannot make me feel any worse than i feel now. I am just really scared .
Post # 6
@ashley99: Huge hugs to you! I also suffer from depression and anxiety and have felt exactly what you’ve described. I was also really reluctant to take to any medication, but when I felt the whole “wanting to kill myself” urge being my frequent, I knew I HAD to do something, and so should you.
As @HisMoon: has stated it’s a chemical imbalance, so it might take you and your doctor some time to find the right medication and dosage for you. While I’ve stayed on the same medication, I had to up my dosage after a few weeks because I wasn’t feeling any better. IF this happens to you, please go back to your doctors and talk to them about it. Ask them for a reference to a psychologist if you think that will help, but look after YOU, please! There’s only one of you and the world (especially us here on the BEE) isn’t ready to lose you.
Post # 7
I have major clinical depression, severe, generalized anxiety disorder, severe and panic disorder so I’ve been in that pit. I can tell you that therapy would have done nothing for me without meds to balance my chemistry so I could function well enough to participate in therapy and in life.
In my case, the anxiety is so severe, it causes the depression. We had to experiment, as most people do, but we have me out of the pit and functioning much better now in my career, my marriage, my life. I even look way better.
I hope you will reconsider on the meds. If you were diabetic, would you refuse insulin? I am sorry you are suffering so, especially when it’s possible for you to find some relief.
Post # 8
i have friends who struggle with anxiety and depression, some medicated, some not.
you have to separate ‘mental’ from ‘health’. your brain is part of your body – if you had a stomach issue you would take medicine – this is not different. don’t let the stigma of mental health problems keep you from getting healthy and living well!
remember that the doctors are there to help you – can you take a friend to the appt?
also – if you get nervous in the appt, write down a list of questions to ask the doctor beforehand.
remember that it takes a while (ask your doctor how long) for medication to begin working – don’t get discouraged because you aren’t feeling better right away, stick with your dosage! if it needs to be amended you can talk to your doctor about that.
in addition, exercise does really good things for anxiety and depression – even just taking a 30 minute walk after dinner can be really helpful. if you are not able to get outside, try downloading a yoga video to do before bed or some zumba to get you moving and your mind off your health issues.
don’t feel alone! there is nothing ‘wrong’ with you and mental health issues are very common! speaking to the doctor should help 🙂
Post # 9
in addition – you should ask your doctor for a referral to a therapist or counselor. not sure about your insurance etc but even if you are uninsured there are low cost clinics available – it sounds like you could use some professional support. don’t be afraid to ask for help!
Post # 10
Thank you everyone for your support. It makes me feel better that I am not alone in this. I have tried other meds before Lexapro and paxil and they made me feel like a zombie. When I start feeling side effects I give up on the meds right away and dont give them a chance. The next one he wants to try is zoloft. The problem is that I dwell on it so much that I dont know if I am causing the side effects or its actually the medicine. I do have an appt with a therapist as well next tuesday. Everyday I feel some kind of pain. Last week it was heart palpitations , now I have heartburn. Its like when one symptom goes another one is right there to replace it. I dont know if it is my brain doing this or I am actually having all these pains. Did anyone else experience this with anxiety? I havent been able to work and doc just recently put me on disability because of it. I am only 37 years old and I feel like I am just wasting my life away. When I get up in the morning I dont look foward to the day, I actually dread it wondering what symptom am I going to feel today. I dont leave my house for weeks at a time because of all of this. My dh has been supportive but I think his patience is starting to wear thin.