@scrinz Thank you for the brash words. I do need to hear it. As far as the porn issues, I do have a problem with porn I just dont want to see it but with him, it was much more than that. It was affecting our sex life so thats when I think porn is a problem, when it affects intimacy betwen the partners. And yes, his habits have made me insecure. Like I have said to many friends and on here I think, now, my biggest problem is that I feel like I lost all my confidence. I used to be a confident girl. I can walk into a bar wearing a turtle neck and guys oogle me, I dont have to dress like a skank to turn heads BUT, bc of his lack of compliments and treating me like I am ordinary, I guess I just started to believe “I just spent an hour getting ready to impress him but it must not be good enough bc he didnt even acknowledge that I got dressed all nice, curled my hair..etc”. Plus, it doesnt help that now he is complimenting other girls, girls who I will admit some are prettier than me but some are not! He is handing out all the comliments I looked for from him. And, he has posted on instagram and fb those spoof kind of pictures and a few have said, “Bitch please I can wipe away your beauty with a wet paper towel”. I know, I know, dont look at his fb, etc. Its just hard and plus my friends are telling me these things as well. I’m a pretty girl, I’m educated, I’m kind, love kids, but…while I can ‘say’ all these things, I’m just having a hard time believing it bc of how he threw such a good thing away for trashy girls. I was telling one of my friends last night that I just feel like my ‘jeans and a t-shirt’ personality wont ever get me another guy bc my ex-fi has me believing that the only thing guys want are the sexy, tight clothed wearing girls..not a girl like me who the moment I get home from work, the yoga pants come on, and bra and make up are off. I have just never felt so low in my life yet in my mind, I know I shouldnt bc I am pretty. I have modeled for companies before…
also, another thing that doesnt help my current insecurities is that my gf and I were out and this older man said to me, “your pretty but youre not a 10”. wtf, who says that. Ok, old man with your old saggy balls, keeping talking about my flaws. lol
And its funny you mention the friend thing. I always told my Fiance that people are guilty by association and that “if you hang around trash too long, you too will start to stink”. He would just stick up for his friend and say he isnt like that. I am firm believer in that idea though.
@sept22insf I have read some pretty crappy stories about guys on this site but I agree.
TO all the ladies on here: Thank you for your support, it is very much appreciated!