- 5 years ago
- Wedding: June 2017
Okay, this might turn out long. Back in late October, Fiance was admitted to the hospital after telling his therapist that he was having suicidal thoughts. He is in pharmacy school, and the stress of his classes as well as just the pressures of life were getting to him. He stayed for five days, and I don’t think I have ever been more scared in my life. I drove to stay in the same city (we’re in a LDR) and after starting antidepressants, the psychiatrist at the hospital felt comfortable sending him home. We were both really excited for him to jump back into school and his normal life, and things seemed to be going well for a month or so.
Fast forward to Thanksgiving. He goes home to his parents’ house for his school break, and something just switches. He had been seeming more depressed for a week or so, but now he is just seeming angry. He’s snapping at people for no reason, and just generally behaving very strangely compared to the mild-mannered man I know. I sat down and talked to him about how concerned I was that he was unhappy, and asked what I could do to help him. He said that he just needed some time to get back in with his doc and get his meds switched, and he thought that would help.
Between Thanksgiving and New Years, things spun completely out of control. Fiance wanted to sell his PS3 and games for $1 on craigslist, and almost flipped his car over going 120 mph down a back road after an ice storm hit in central Illinois to name a few. I’ve been completely lost as to how to handle things, and have just been holding on to the fact that I just needed to make it through until today because today was his appointment with his psychiatrist.
After three long months, Fiance has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I’m relieved that he is finally getting the help that he needs, and that I will soon be able to sleep a little better at night knowing he is safe. My only concern is how he is handling it. I have bipolar disorder, so we aren’t exactly strangers to the whole thing. It’s just hard seeing him go through something so life changing and not knowing how to console him.
I know many of you may not have advice, but I mainly needed to just get this off my chest. Any prayers that can be sent his way would be greatly appreciated.