- 8 years ago
I’m feeling very down and lonely and I just need to talk to someone. My best friend is engaged, I’m her maid of honor so our conversations of late are just wedding this wedding that, so talking to her about this is just not the right time. Don’t get me wrong I love the planning and everything its just paralleled at the same time with my wishing it were me…the old “always a bridesmaid”
I broke up with my boyfriend of over two years about 6 months ago. I miss him. I miss him incredibly. We were at that stage of “waiting”… we were talking about our future, about getting married, about whether I would change my name or not *when* we got married. Things were in the way though. Like him not being able to find a job, my starting a full time job while still in school (and feeling like I was living 5 different lives), and the big one, my parents. My parents just did not like him, thought he was not going any where in life and was “weird” and let both me and him know it. The stress of it all got to me and so I asked for a break. I never thought that would be it, I thought we’d take the time, figure out what we both wanted, needed and come back together. He was done. And told me we could never get back together because of my parents.
I’m heartbroken. Even though I’ve been on a few dates since more and more as I meet these guys I realize just how perfect he and I were, how much we connected on every level and I just feel like hurling. We haven’t spoken since he told me we could never get back together. We don’t share many mutual friends in our new town so I have no idea what’s going on with him. No clues how he’s feeling.
I know I have time to meet someone else, that I’m only 26, but the fact is that I’m going to 4 weddings this summer, most of my friends are engaged, married, or nearly there. I am the only single one among my friends right now, the only single bridesmaid in my best friend’s wedding and I feel so lost.
I would give up everything to be with him again — and I can’t even talk to him.
Thanks for listening, sigh.