- 4 years ago
- Wedding: June 2013
Darling Husband and I may be starting to TTC in about a month or so. I range day to day between being ready and being uncomfortable with the idea. Darling Husband is 100% ready and VERY eager to have a baby. Normally it’s the other way around. We’re settled in life, nice house, good jobs, make good money, my mom is a daycare provider and lives in the same town as us even…I guess my fears stem from the unknown (and I have Generalized Anxiety so..that doesn’t help). All I hear are horror stories from parents about how suddenly your life becomes sad and your marriage takes a nose dive. I’d put it off a bit more but I’m already 33 and would rather take the plunge now.
Anyone else get anxious? People always look at me horrified like I’m some kind of monster for not being like “Since the day I was born I knew I wanted 100 babies!” My mom always said all she wanted in life was to be a mom. My cousins are always posting on facebook “My entire purpose in life was to be a mother”. I guess I just don’t feel that way. I always saw my future with a child in it, but I never was the kind of girl that planned her entire wedding out and picked out baby names by the age of 13 either. 🙁