- 6 years ago
- Wedding: February 2012
I just got hired for my first “big girl” full time job. I am super excited because I can finally stop waiting tables part time for my income and I can finally get some useful experience.
At the same time, I’m feeling overwhelmed and unsure. I really don’t want to screw this job up and I’m worried about disappointing my new boss and being a failure. My idea was to try to start out doing entry level clerical office work. I got the office job coincidentally when I applied for a completely different position, and it has way more responsibility than I anticipated. I work directly under the manager, with no other administrative staff above or below me and I basically do whatever work he can’t handle, AND help out the internet consulting staff AND learn about ebay marketing because that’s where the company is headed and not even my boss is entirely familiar with it yet. And I have to start Monday because he needs help ASAP.
On one hand I’m really proud to have this job and I’m proud that I impressed someone so much when my self confidence is honestly not that high. But I keep running “Don’t get yourself fired, don’t get yourself fired!” through my head and it won’t stop.