- 4 years ago
Hey everyone, so i wanted to get a bit of advice and I know this is a great place for it! Most of you girls seem to have your stuff together, so it will be taken on board.
I have a bit of a history as a job hopper. I’ve been in the workforce almost five years and am on my 4th job. The first two jobs I left because I wanted to do something slightly different (but still under the IT umbrella). And the last 3rd one I left because the company restructured and it wasn’t a very nice place after that…a lot changed..around that time i was approached for a job with potentially 75% jump in pay and into what some would consider the more prestigous part of IT.. so took it. I know i’m not the best with career decisions! Also I suspect I have social anxiety/awkwardness to the max so i often find after 1-2 years in the job, people start to work that out and its best for me to leave (even if I’m doing well..)…cuz my career won’t be going anywhere in that company anyway!
Anyway the latest job has been a really bad move. The worst experience I’ve ever had. Usually I settle in well, get on ok with bosses etc. Here my boss and I have a strained uncomfortable awkward relationship, We are a satellite offfice of 4 people (100 people in the company in another state). My job is focused on research to help the company make decisions. However Since joining I noticed 2 things. 1) my work is never used for anything 2) my boss’ work is not taken seriously or used for anything. He is ok at his job, but kind of out of touch with reality. He asks me to work on research tasks for which the outcome is fairly obvious to anyone with common sense.
To make matters worse, Im not very good at the research and unable to produce output he is happy with. I’ve tried really hard, working longer hours and trying to get feedback from him incrementally. However when he gives me feedback, it is vague always the same and quite obvious he didnt really read what i gave him….this makes me feel my work was unimportant and also means I can’t improve. Repeat this experience about 20 times – this is my first two months in the job. There is another guy in the team, a long term intern for a year – my boss loves his work but not mine which is embarassing. I feel too embarassed to ask the intern for help because im way more experienced and the intern doesnt seem to want to interact with anyone, just get their wokr done and get out.
In previous roles I had lots of different tasks which kept things interesting and allowed me to shine in the areas I was good. Here, my boss does everything himself and only gives me this one research task. On occassion he has asked for my input on what he is working on, but he put me on the spot and i wasn’t across that area (because i had been focusing on my task only for the last 2 months) so couldn’t add anything of value. I felt so bad and embarassed! Like I should know better, but i never knew he would ask me about it!! otherwise i would have been prepared!
I want to leave this job so bad. Its probably the best gig I could have hoped to get in terms of pay and lifestyle, but I don’t want to get fired. The company said our office will close in the next 1-5 years as well, which has scared me. ..maybe they are going to let us all go? especially if my job isn’t important? They said the plan is to move us to the other state but i don’t know for sure. Plus i dont want to move!