- 6 years ago
- Wedding: September 2013
So the Jewish new year began at sundown tonight and it is a time to reflect on the last year and try very hard to be better about how you treat others and yourself. Instead of work for the next two days I will be going to services. It is a tradition I have been doing since I was a young child.
I normally like this time of year. I spend it doing some hard reflections about my life. I am still planning on doing that. One of the things I really want to work on is not being all consumed by my wedding (I don’t know if I am going to be successfully, but I am going to try) I went to my mothers house for traditional dinner this evening and I was exhausted. Dead tired, exhausted. We did the Race for the Cure this morning which meant us getting up at 6 and being downtown by 7 and running at 7:30 and then doing the 5k walk soon afterwards, it was a long morning and just took it out of me. I was as mentally prepared as I could, and was looking forward to a calm dinner with some good food.
As soon as I walk in the door she starts bugging me about the dress. Sigh. I have been so stressed out over the dress (see prior post and please offer your opinion, it is beyond helpful) I have tried on a ton and will be trying on some more until I find the dress, but it is just an area of stress at the moment.
That is an understatement, it is a HUGE AREA OF STRESS. I don’t want to be stressed out about my dress as I am trying to think of ways to destress about my wedding.
I want to spend the next 48 hours doing what I normally do around this time of year, reflect, figure out how to be a better person, and so on. That is very hard to do when my mom brings up the area that is causing me a huge amount of stress.
So here is to a new year and a new hope that my wedding will no consume my life, or better yet, I will not let it consume my life. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this….I hope…