- 8 years ago
I posted a few months back about how entirely freaked out I was feeling about getting married! I was newly engaged and feeling nervous, scared, and very critical of my fiance. Well, fast forward a few short months and it is all gone! We got the big things around wedding planning done (date set, place, catering, wedding planner, etc), and once that was done I just felt better.
I read a few books that really helped me to understand the transition I was facing and why I was feeling confused and scared. Also, I think I was overwhelmed with the planning and the expense of everything. I let myself feel everything and I listened to everything I thought, for better or for worse.
In the end, I came back to the place I started: totally, and completely excited to marry my fiance. At the end of the day, nothing else matters other than love, mutual respect and understanding. I now dream about the wedding on a daily basis, but more than the wedding, I dream about my life with my husband. I can’t wait to have children with him, to grow and change with him, and to be his partner, and he mine.
I wanted to put this out there because I was a total mess for the first few months of my engagement. I was actually really scared and even in my darkest of places wondered if I was making a mistake. But, that is just a phase and it passes, and you emerge on the other side happy and peaceful. No relationship is perfect, and all relationships are going to take work and effort from both parties. It takes maturity and total comittment to get married. It isn’t about being googly eyed and having butterflies, or 100% compatability. It is about a choice to commit your life to another person. My fiance is my best friend and the other night we went out to dinner and I had to pinch myself because I can’t believe that I get to marry HIM!