- 3 years ago
- Wedding: April 2015
I’m honestly just writing to vent and deal with my own emotions. I’ve posted here about wedding dresses, invitation etiquette, the dresses of my bridal party, preparing my body for TTC, and most recently about planning a baby moon. Well, I don’t know anymore if that’s happening. Here is the story: The last week of May, I missed my period. We had started officially trying to get pregnant in April. I couldn’t believe that I had been blessed so quickly with a spontaneous pregnancy.
I took 2 home pregnancy tests, both were positive, I recorded the moment my husband found the tests I left for him to find, called our parents and gave them the good news. I specifically asked my parents to not tell anyone as the first trimester must be very low key and anything can happen. My father insisted that everything would be OK that with every child he had (we are many, ok?) he announced it the second he found out and to not be negative, so he told some family members. We haven’t announced it to friends, work, etc.
After the home pregnancy tests we went to my gyn who confirmed (via urine test) the pregnancy, she said congratulations and we talked about what I could eat, not eat, exercising and pregnancy weight. She also referred me to an ob/gyn that could see me for the rest of the pregnancy as she doesn’t do deliveries anymore.
I started (I know, too soon) looking at nursery room ideas and more importantly getting creative about how to fit a baby in our home office, I even bought a few larger pieces of clothing that I thought would stretch and look cute in the future. I downloaded the relevant apps and took pictures of my “progress” (not showing yet) as well as read every day what supposedly was happening to my body.
I was able to get an appointment with the recommended doctor (scheduling was a pain) for an ultrasound on June 23. Everything was going well, I was following recommendations to the T, and feeling incredibly happy, until last night…
When I wiped, I saw a little bit of blood, I panicked, cried, my husband was scared too, we called both doctors, it sucked to be “transitioning” as I was technically not a patient yet. The doctor on call said I needed to calm down as nothing could be done this early (supposedly 5 weeks), and to drink lots of water and try to relax. It was a horrible night, I felt better as no blood came out the next few times I went to the bathroom. However, it happened again 3 or 4 times throughout the night. This morning, there was the blood again, the color was very brown now. This looked like spotting, not a large amount, no bright red. We read so many mixed opinions online.
We called first thing in the morning and were able to see our new doctor today. They did another HCG test (urine) and was positive again. Then, they did an ultrasound, I was feeling very positive until the lady confirmed “I do not see a pregnancy in your uterus. There is no gestational sac.” My heart sank. The doctor said it could be an ectopic pregnancy (however I don’t have any other symptoms, no heavy bleeding, no pain), that I already passed the baby (again, very little blood and only on the toilet paper), or that it’s just too early to tell. He performed a pap right there and saw that the cervix was closed, which he said was a good sign, he also said he saw no discharge just a tiny bit of blood. He said he is not worried yet and to try not to worry. They drew blood, and I have to go back in 2 days for more blood work, he will then compare the levels of HCG and tell me if this is a viable pregnancy. He also wants to see me again in 2 weeks for another ultrasound. According to the doctors and the way they count (which one of them explained to me was outdated because it comes from ages ago when we couldn’t tell when we were ovulating) from your last period, I would be 6 weeks pregnant now, but my husband and I keep telling them that we know we conceived on May 17, which would put me at 4 weeks now.
I’m trying to stay positive, I don’t have heavy bleeding so this may just be the implantation bleeding. Does anyone know if implantation bleeding is normal at 4 weeks? And for how long should it last? I don’t have any cramps or pain.
I’m very worried about the blood test results. What happens if the HCG levels are not enough? Several of my friends have taken progesterone throughout their pregnancy, I’m suprised that here they won’t prescribe it. To sum it up, I’m a mess, I’m worried, I have an important exam in 2 days and I can’t focus. I guess other than sharing my story, I hope to hear some encouragement stories. Did you have a similar experience? Were you told there was no gestational sac and you were actually pregnant? What could this mean? I keep testing positive in urine pregnancy tests (by now 4, including 2 at doctor’s offices).
Thank you bees for listening. This is truly a helpful and wonderful community, I can’t believe how long we’ve gone from complaining about my wedding dress not being delivered on time to this. Ironically, that now seems such a small problem to have, ha!