- 6 months ago
I wanted to share my story with you all .I realise we are all different and different approaches work for different people…but here is my story 🙂
I’ve dieted twice and failed (I say failed because I gained it all back.. plus more).
This time I decided to work on myself first. I realised I was binge eating and was a secret eater. I would go shopping, buy a sharing bag of sweets and eat the whole bag to myself on the way home before anyone saw me and then hide the evidence. I had to admit to myself I didn’t have a healthy relationship with food and I wanted to change that.
I don’t count calories or follow any weight loss plan or diet .I don’t do fasting or low carb high fat. My food shop is very healthy and I tend to cook healthy meals and follow different interesting recipes. However…when I eat out or when I have dinner at friends’ houses I will eat what I want to eat. I don’t just choose the healthiest thing on the menu…I choose what I feel like eating .I will probably share a dessert and maybe have a couple of glasses of wine. I would say that I probably eat healthily 80% of the time. Nothing is off limits and I don’t have a wagon which I can fall off, no wagon exists in what I do. I don’t feel guilty when I eat. If someone offers me cake and I feel like eating it, I will eat it and then carry on with my day. If I don’t want it, I will say no…however I will not say no when actually I want it and then spend the next few minutes pleased with myself for saying no.
It’s taken me a long time to reach this point. For the first time I feel nuetral around food…I don’t feel worried, or feel the need to stuff my face. It’s just food. Everything is ok in moderation. There are no rules in what I do.
The last time I was ‘dieting’ I was actually abusing my body. I didn’t realise at the time and everyone was telling me how great I was looking so I carried on. People seem to think if you’re overweight and eating very little it’s ok, and they encourage you do it. I remember trying to eat 500 calories a day. I counted calories in everything and weighed myself about 20 times a day. I was so miserable. It saddens me to remember this time and what I put my poor body through
I now eat well because my body deserves it and I love my body. It does a lot for me. I don’t eat fruit and veg as a punishment because I hate my body as it is. If there’s any fruit or vegetables I don’t like (like apples) I don’t eat them.
This has to be sustainable for life and being sustainable means I have to enjoy it and be able to keep it up 🙂
We need to look after ourselves!