- 8 years ago
…Because when I asked my coworkers yesterday, the second I said we’ve been dating for 4 years, you know what they said?
“Maybe he should make it official.” *while wiggling their left ring finger*
First off, thank you for reminding me. Second, I’m glad you enjoyed my joke back about how “yeah, you know, I guess my saying yes to him after all this time really WOULD be a good gift for him!” while I was trying not to go back to the dark side of the Waiting Cycle right in front of you.
Like come on, do people really think that making these comments help me or the situation? Seriously, let’s take a moment and really think about that. Let’s see. HE is the one who proposes. HE is the one who isn’t ready. He knows where I stand, and I do truly love him with all my heart, so I don’t want to beat him over the head with where I stand – yet again. I know he feels bad, and I also know that he does want to marry me. I hate that I let these sorts of comments get to me, I really do. But I feel like I can’t help it. Even if my mind has been off the subject for a while, the second these comments are made… BOOM. Right back to feeling crummy about it.
Even the other night at work, I was talking to a customer. He was joking about asking me out, I said I’m taken. He asked how long, I told him. He asked if we live together, I said yeah. He says “so waiting on a ring, are we?” I laughed and said no, it will come when it comes.
I even told my SO this after work that night. I told him what the guy said, and I said I told him no. SO went quiet (I realized after that maybe it could’ve freaked him out… because I flat out said I’m not waiting lol).
Anyway. Deep breaths. I know on the grand scheme of things, these comments don’t define me, they don’t rule my life. I guess I’m just working through the feelings that come up with them.
SO got home yesterday after his weekend away. He called me both nights to say goodnight, and the last night he was gone we actually spoke on the phone for like half an hour haha. It was awesome, felt like we had just started dating again. He was super affectionate all last night too, which was nice.
But man. I almost want to bring a bat to work hahahaha. I mean, really. When I ask about a GIFT for HIM, I’m talking like an actual gift. That being said, do you guys have any ideas? I was thinking even just renting a nice hotel room for a night could be nice. He keeps telling me he has no idea as to what I should get him.