- 4 years ago
- Wedding: April 2013
OK so this has nothing to do with our wedding but here’s the deal…
I grew up in church. Every Sunday and often times Sunday evening and Wednesday. The church’s were horrible. I hate to say it but they were. You know the southern pentacostle churchs and a southern baptist.
So I strayed from the church for quite some time, I went back in middle school by my own decision but it was more for my friends. Then I strayed again until I was 15 and got saved and started attending regularly again on my own. Not long after my life made a turn for the worst (in regards to my faith) and I went stray again. Back and forth. But the churchs were ALWAYS about judging people or money and it was frustrating. After high school I kind of didn’t stray but didn’t give much to my faith. I was happy to discuss it at length any time I was given the chance but never went to church. I’d try to go to church but found something wrong with every church and almost every church was the same as my past experience, the judging and the money.
Last year I became determined to find a church and to just get over my reservations regarding the church and we did. Our church is great, not judgemental but they talk about money and tithing regularly, so much so that last week the entire lecture was about tithing (we opted out of that service)
For quite some time now I just keep wishing there was a church that wasn’t cooped up inside, one where everyone just sat on blankets or towels at the beach, at a park, somewhere where you are outside all worshiping God, an acoustic guitar and bongos for the music with the singing, and instead of lectures, it’s discussion. A topic is mentioned the week before on what we will be discussing the following week so everyone can go home and read on it to know what will be discussed and everyone just has an open discussion and instead of being told what it means, everyone gives their thoughts and feelings, experiences etc. Where you aren’t told what to believe but you learn for yourself. A place where tithing doesn’t exist. If you want to give to the church you give to a charity fund the church has set up for the needy.
I’ve talked about this for ages and today my husband said I should try and start one. He’s told me this before but was serious this time and said he thinks I can do it and it would be a good thing. We discussed what we would do if it was winter and such and I still didn’t think I could do it, don’t you need a degree in theology or something? But you don’t apparently you just have to fill out this form, believe in God and Jesus and ask for forgiveness, pay a fee I’m sure and you’re an ordained minister.
So I could easily start this, especially since I’m a SAHM right now, but *should* I do this is the question. I’m no genius when it comes to the bible and will learn many things with the rest of the group in the discussion, I just don’t know. I feel so drawn to the idea but I don’t know if I can do it.
Opinions? Ideas? Anything?