- 8 years ago
- Wedding: January 2013
I’m an old member on here, but going undercover in case I get found by people I know outside of the internet, who know my usual usernames on things.
I don’t really know if I’m after advice, or sympathy, or just people to rage along with me. I just need to type it all out and use here as a sort of therapy by getting it all out of my system before I start crying again.
I am two months pregnant. Healthy baby as far as we know.
I have been diagnosed with breast cancer. I will have to undergo a lot of intensive treatment. I will most likely be having a mastectomy. Possibly a double.
In light of this, my husband and I have come to the heartbraking decision that I will have an abortion. It’s taken us a lot of thinking and praying, but it is what is best.
We told my family, who have been unbelievably supportive.
We told his family. His mother said the above ‘It’s probably a good thing that you have to abort. If you’re getting both your breasts removed, then you won’t be able to breastfeed. So it’s not like you would have your child’s best interests at heart, even from the start.’
His mother has strong opinions on breastfeeding. Clearly.
We stood up and left.
Since then we have been fending off phone calls from Mother-In-Law, who is trying to explain that she only wants to protect her grandchildren, and that we are stupid to be offended by her maternal instinct.
I can’t even comprehend where the fuck her head is at. I’ve got other things to worry about right now. I feel sick all the time and my head is pounding. I can’t express just how much I hate her. Every time the phone rings I want to scream at her, but I just don’t have the energy, so I let it ring out and just get more and more angry until I wind up crying.
I don’t want to talk to people I know about it, I just want to hide in the internet and vent. I don’t want to constantly go on at my husband about how much I hate his mum, so again – turning to the internet and faceless people.