(Closed) Obsessed with my weight… not normal

posted 6 years ago in Wellness
Post # 3
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883 posts
Busy bee
  • Wedding: March 2012

Dooood! You totatlly read my diary! JK who has a diary these days? lol I use to weigh 213 lbs a year and a half ago and I still feel that way. I’m fluctuating between 135 and 138 now and I still feel like a hippo. I’ve been strength training religiously and I know muscle weighs more than fat, but damn that number on the scale always throws me off. I’m 5′ and alot of people tell me how tiny I am, I just don’t see it! 

I will see it once I get to 115-120 and after I LEARN SELF ACCEPTANCE & SELF LOVE! hehe : ) 

 

Post # 5
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573 posts
Busy bee
  • Wedding: June 2014

I get this too. I have always been thin and fit looking so I only got on a scale at the doctors. I believed that the number didn’t matter at all, what mattered was how you looked and felt….and then early last year I saw a number I did not like. I was 10-15 lbs heavier than I thought I was, which I know doesn’t sound like much, but it was out of my happy zone. And suddenly I was working out like crazy, watching what I ate and weighing myself every other to every day. Now that I am back at my happy weight I thought it would make me not be as intense about it but it’s almost like I made being obessive a habit.

Post # 6
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Sugar bee
  • Wedding: September 2011

Throw away your scale and buy a measuring tape.  Weight is unreliable since (as you mentioned)  muscle is heavier than fat, so you can weigh more but technically look smaller.

Post # 7
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5475 posts
Bee Keeper
  • Wedding: August 2012

I agree- ditch the scale!  Right now- tell me something you like about your body:___________.

Start practicing self-love 🙂 

Oh- and Mrs Rugbee- unless you’re a wing or scrumhalf, don’t get too small or you’ll be run over on the pitch!

Post # 8
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753 posts
Busy bee
  • Wedding: October 2012

I’m the same way. When I was 19 I was 80lbs at 5’3. As the years went by I slowly put on weight until, at my highest I was 155lbs. I was NOT happy. Then I got sick and now I’m back down to around 115. If I gain one lb, ONE LB I flip out and start crying. Especially around my period when I retain a lot of water & tend to swell up. It’s probably because after losing so much weight, I’m nervous I’m gaining it back again. I struggled with anorexia nervosa a long time ago and I feel like the mental disease itself never went away. I started eating normally again, but I’m mentally the same as I always was; miserable with my outer appearance. I knew 80lbs was never really HEALTHY for someone with my particular frame, but I find myself wishing I could get back down under 100 again. Ugh. 

Don’t think because I, personally, obsess over my weight that I think that anyone weighing more than me doesn’t look good or isn’t beautiful, because I do. My obsession and feelings toward weight are only directed towards myself. I just don’t carry weight well at ALL. Some people carry it beautifully, but not this chick. 

Just don’t get as crazy as me and let it take over your life, ok, OP? lol. 

Post # 9
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883 posts
Busy bee
  • Wedding: March 2012

@MrsRugbee:  hehe thanks for the “slap in the face” moment, it’s funny how we can call ourselves out when we know how ridiculous we are being! Thanks Hun! I’m sure you look and are amazing!

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