@CaraMia10: thank you very much. my husband just got home about 30 minutes ago (worked a wedding tonight, he’s a caterer)…and, of course, part of me has been TERRIFIED to bring this up to him…but he came home and we talked and he totally agreed that it would be a GREAT thing for me to talk to someone, professionally.
One of his “issues” with me is the fact that I have NO focus whatsoever and am constantly “all over the place”…he even said he really notices it with the dogs – that our pug has been acting weird ALL weekend (and this weekend is when i’ve been having my ‘attack’…) yet when i was at the state fair this morning with my father – and my husband stayed at home because he had to go into work in the afternoon…and he mentioned that our dogs were totally “calm” while I was gone – but when I’m home they feed off my emotions and area “all over the place” like I am.
I do NOT want to take medication…but we’ll see. That’s the reason why I’d rather try the SJW route first.
but you mentioned ADD – and that’s also something i’ve (obviously) never been diagnosed with – however my brother has adult ADD and my focus issues are AWFUL. I’ll be sitting in really important meetings at work – and my mind will be 2000 miles away thinking about the weirdest things.
but I have always been extremely obsessive over things. once the wedding was over – my hubby was SO happy that i wouldn’t be obsessing over the wedding anymore – and joked about “what’s your next “obsessive hobby”…and yeah – I’ve gotten a second job as a pampered chef consultant! 😀
i’m excited about that – because I also think that it’ll help me with a lot of my social issues I have (which is something else I need to talk to a therapist about…)
i KNOW not to “self-diagnose” by means of the internet – but of course I was googling information on OCD and anxiety and also came across “social-anxiety disorder” and while it’s not like i’m exactly everything it talks about – it’s like “wow, yeah, THAT’S me!” 🙁
he HATES how i never really wanna “hang out” with friends and he’s the one who almost has to “force” me to go hang out with our friends (he’s ALWAYS been much more social than me…)
ugh. i dunno. i know i NEED to talk to someone though. again, i won’t got into details on how i’ve been feeling this weekend – but I will say I’ve been having extremely obsessive thoughts all weekend that have been driving me crazy. 🙁
the really good thing is – at this moment, anyways, after talking to my husband and knowing that he is very supportive of me talking to someone – i know he truly does love me – that he’s not saying “oh it’s all in your head” or anything. no – he totally agrees – and agrees it’d be a good thing! but that was one thing that scared me was that he wouldn’t be supportive at all…