Post # 1
Something inside me just snapped. Like, I literally FELT it. I just experienced another wedding setback, and planning has been super stressful lately. All of a sudden I feel like I just want to run. I feel like this wedding planning is out of control. Nothing is going right.
On top of that for some reason I went into total panic mode and all these crazy thoughts keep popping into my head. Thoughts like “OMG is he really the one for me?” “What if all these setbacks are a sign to not marry him?” “My single life is gone. Never will I again feel the excitement of meeting someone new, the butterflies you get in your stomach from new love, the feeling of a first kiss”…etc, etc.
What. The. Hell. I love my fiance and I was so excited to marry him but today for some reason I just feel dread. I feel confused. I am too old to feel like this. I have had my time to run around and have my single fun. I have found the one. Finally. Why is it so hard to settle down?
Has anyone else ever felt like this? Is this just cold feet? I can’t talk to anyone about this because it is humilitating. I am so embarrassed that I feel this way and I just want to cry. I was going to post under a new account but I figured screw it. You bees know who I am, why hide it?
Ugh, freaking out right now.
Post # 3
@Legallyblondiebride: BIG HUG
Hun we’ve all been through it! I had a freak out moment like that and now that I’m married I feel like an idiot for wondering about why I would miss my single life. I LOVE BEING MARRIED and so will you!
I remember some of your posts. You are dealing with A LOT from bitchy ex friends and your Future Sister-In-Law.
Take a break from wedding planning for a week. Go to the spa, go shopping, have a nice dinner date with your Fiance to remember why you love him. Go out with friends who support you. Keep your mind off those who do not like you for whatever reason.
Setbacks happen. The week if my wedding our baker bailed and I had to rush to Walmart toget a wedding cake and pay for it using the money I was going to pay my car insurance for!! The cake was delish and my insurance was late but didnt’ cancel.
The flowers I wanted from Michaels I didn’t get in time because they were spring flwoers and I had NO money so I had to use a different flower but it all worked out
My groomsmen was having financial problems and didn’t get his tux until the FINAL DAY before he could not be in the wedding.
Things work out!!
Post # 4
@LuvMySailor: Thank you SO MUCH for your response. It means so much to me, really. I am so relieved that I am not alone. I think it is everything piled on top of each other. Thanks again <3
Post # 5
I don’t know if this will help you feel better, but it reminded me to not stress about the details and put things <back> into perspective.
Post # 6
I think its normal. Planning can be so stressful and some days it feels like too much and u need someone to blame and u don’t want to do it. But all the questions u are asking ure self don’t have muxh to do with ure Fiance. I think iits normal bc the finality of it all. I’ve had those days before and u get over them promise.
Post # 7
I think it is a good sign that you are having cold feet. This is the biggest commitment of your life that you are making and if you did not wonder and doubt some then you are probably not taking it seriously enough.
However it may be a sign that you need to take a short break from wedding planning and spend time reconnecting with the man you love 🙂
Post # 8
Thanks for the advice girls! I do feel better today. I think it is the wedding planning that is causing my anxiety spurts. I am the kind of person that thrives on structure and this wedding planning thing makes my life feel a little out of control. Especially with all the set backs we have been having and all the problems. Luckily none of them have been with Fiance though, which is good. He actually told me last night to write him a list of all the things I still need done and he will do them for me, which I thought was very sweet. He works hard (sometimes 12+ hour days 6 days a week) so I hate asking him for anything.
@JenniferMm: Thanks for the link. What a beautiful wedding and touching story! 🙂