I had a seriously productive and very healthy morning, went running, did my workout class, had a good cry and talked to 2 of my girlfriends on the phone.
Then it just hit me like a punch to the gut: OMG it’s really over! My mind just started spinning on if I did the right thing, said the right thing, should have had more patience with him, was I too cold and let a wonderful guy/relationship go?…questions, regrets etc etc etc. And a lot of tears.
It is helping me SO MUCH to come back to the board and read your responses. We really do work magic for our fellow Bee’s sometimes 🙂
@guitargirl: @Ms. MoxieMonkey:
I absolutely LOVE “It’s called a Breakup becuase it’s Broken”!!! That book got my through my last 2 bad breakups, I followed the plan to the letter. I have no idea where the book is now, I think I gave it to another woman who was in need. Sh*t! I hope I’ve read it enough times to remember.
thanks, I will not take him back unless we’re going to get engaged. If I’m tempted to, just give me a virtual “slap in the face” 😉
@Ms. Pink Scrubs:
thank you for the compliment. It wasn’t as hard as I thought to keep it together, I just kept thinking “breathe…”. I tried not to let myself go too far into resentment while waiting, so I think that helped as well. I am going to try to stay around the boards too.
I am so so sorry you had to go through so much pain, and I appreciate you sharing your story. I’m so glad everything turned out so well for you now.
you are absolutely right that some good things fall apart so better things can come together. I was feeling a bit sorry for myself becuase it seems like SO MUCH is falling apart at the same time (relationship, a huge crisis at work, boss/management changes) but hopefully it will all get better in time.
Thanks for all the hugs and encouragement!