- 5 years ago
- Wedding: October 2014
Well some of you bees may remember that I posted a little bit ago about being bullied at work…..well it has officially spun out of control, and this morning makes 2 months straight of my leaving work in tears questioning wether I even want to be a nurse (I work night shift). After many meetings with my boss promising itll get better with no plan of action, and the two main nurses I have issues with are now broadening their attacks on me, but are also feeling brazen enough to start attacking one of the new hires we have who has been on the floor as a nurse for 3 weeks EVER (her first job, fresh out of school) who is a really sweet gal and does an awesome job, is now being targeted by them, and my boss is ducking her head in the sand….
SO after new developments this week, mainly them openly sitting at the nurses station trying to CONVINCE THE DOCTORS NOT TO LIKE ME! saying that Im stupid and incompetent. Its growing more brazen, i was outside the nurses station talking to a doctor, when I overheard them very loudly (they didnt know i was at work yet), talking to a few co-workers of mine who they are friends with talking about how to get me fired and citing how that had got “problem nurses” fired before and laughing about it, it was everything to trying to hack my charting to make errors in my name to making up patient complaints, I am terrified for my job right now, thinking everytime the phone rings itll be my boss finally believing everything, at work i have become the new “whipping bitch” I get screamed at infront of doctors, new hires, patients and families (all of which my boss knows about and wont do anything besides ask them not to retaliate against me)….its out of hand, and I AM OVER IT! So now I am sitting here applying for new jobs, hoping my next employer wont be alarmed that ill have worked at this job for 8 months and am applying for a new one esp. when all other jobs ive worked at ive been at for 2-3 plus years and ive had to move for school reasons were the reasons ive left them jobs.
And the final straw was, My stethascope with my name on it got stolen at work, id set it in my private work locker, (i didnt think anything of it id never had anything stolen from me) since i would be back for it in less than 8 hours, and i came back and was a little late, and boom, gone from my locker, the hidden pouch in the back of my nursing bag was wide open, my stethascope, my pen light, my work pens, and some hair bands, were missing, I freaked, i asked around if anyone had touched my bag, checked all over the hospital, i checked everyones stethasope, and none were mine, mine was gone, i asked around and the only thing i found out was that the two nurses i have issues with were hanging around in the break room after work (where our lockers are) and they were in there when i left, and 4 other nurses remember me putting my stethascope in my bag and into the locker, my boss, searched all the lockers for me, and nada, a $130 stethascope gone, i dont care about the other stuff as much but that stethascope was a gift from my parents when i couldnt afford one and they werent that much financially better off due to medical bills a few years ago…So now i dont feel like i can even bring my wallett to work with me….or anything…..
Now Im planning a wedding, a return to school, a move and a job transition in a new state, I have decided to take what I can get job wise and am considering clinics in an organization so if i dont like it i can transfer to acute care, or another one, with out leaving the company.
I woke up from sleeping this morning, called my momma (mainly because my little sister is planning to live in our house this fall during college, she can take over our house which is nice, and she is willing) told her whats going on and she agreed, before they do something to get me investigated or im so upset at work that i make a mistake….(in nursing thats HUGE!), I called my Fiance at work, he agreed, and he actually has a standing job offer in the area im looking and can go anytime we say so, and is talking about going up early and getting a home established for us (his new boss if he takes it has it in the work contract that he will help new employees find housing and either pay for it or we can get more pay and we pay for it)…..
Im sad Bees, Id always thought I would build a life here, until that last 4-5months that is, We were talking about making an offer on a house, and digging in some roots here, but now I hate this town, I hate this place, there is litterally no where else for me to work here (its a small town 1 hospital, 1 nursing home, no home health openings, 1 clinic), and I want to stay in acute care so my option is to leave, and try again, Im only 25, so I can move fairly easy….I just feel awful im going to leave some family back here, if I get a job where i want luckily ill only be 5 hours away maximum(its normally like a 4.5hr drive with stops), so its not like ill be on the other side of the world, what makes me feel better is my mom has mentioned moving to the same area in a few years as its where they want to retire, so i feel better about it…..
I just need some good luck dust, and good wishes, i just feel so beat down, and unhappy with my job, thank god Fiance and my family love me, and i have some kick ass friends……and i am thankful i have the bee as a sounding board to help me….