- 2 years ago
I need some advice and to vent, it’s literally four days until my wedding this weekend and I’m full of anxiety. I know I want to marry him and am excited about the wedding but there’s been so much going on I think my shit handling limit just got pushed too far. This year we’ve had to deal with my dads steady decline in health battling with Lewy body dementia, I was a full time care giver for months, he finally found placement at a care facility and lasted a month before he became aggressive and hostile to the staff, unfortunately a part of his disease. Today we just placed him into his third and final care facility. Last week, my grandma who is at the end of her battle with Alzheimer’s almost died, we were with her through a sudden flu and thought should was going to pass this last Friday, thankfully she didn’t but we are all shook up from it.
This weekend my fiances family of 15 people flew in from Africa to come for the wedding and the first three days every second was spent hosting them; having breakfasts, dinners, lunches. I’m beyond streched feeling like I have to host them- I really don’t know them all very well because of the distance between our families. I feel overwhelmed having moved my dad in to another home today and stressed that I’m making a bad impression on his family because I’ve skipped the last two days ‘family plans’ because of everything I’ve had going on.
I broke down today in a full panic attack which is not a usual thing for me. Between all of this I’ve been angry with my fiancé because all the wedding planning was on my shoulders.
I want to walk into my wedding day happy and right now it’s just all too much.
Thanks bees – vent over 🙂