- 3 months ago
- Wedding: October 2017
I took a small hiatus from the bee about two weeks before our wedding. Weddings are stressful on everyone but I have an anxiety disorder which means stress is magnified, especially if it’s something you are unfamiliar with. Like a huge event. Focused completely on you and your husband (in our case, our daughters as well) with lots of details and routine changes. Even happy stress can have a negative impact (some people stress eat, I lose my appetite, and a month later, the only thing I miss about the stress is the appetite reduction 😂😂)
I was having trouble coping and things came to a head two weeks before so I decided to make relaxation my primary focus.
In doing so, I was able to stay in the moment and truly enjoy the wedding day!!
It was a month ago and I feel ready to share now!!
The day was warm and absolutely beautiful. I’m convinced the weather held out just for the wedding 😉
There were obviously some glitches but the only one that affected me was the hair comb from the florist not being ready when expected so we had to rearrange the morning schedule a bit.
The flowers were late, the photographer was late, my BIL (who caused stress about needing the photographer to wait until they get there because they weren’t sure if they would make it on time) showed up an hour earlier than I asked him to (I guess they were pissy about it because the photographer was late so they had to wait for the first look to be done, but I didn’t hear about the pissyness until a week later so it was all good!) Because the photograoher was late, guests were showing up as we were finishing up pictures outside, so they were walking past us.
The thing is, the only thing I stressed over was rearranging the morning schedule so we could have the hair comb before we had our hair done.
Nothing else phased me. When I saw the guests, I asked to finish the pictures during cocktail hour and we all made a big joke about hiding me from the arriving guests 😂
The flowers would get there when they get there, the photographer would get there when she gets there… I was able to just relax and I really didn’t care, I knew things would fall together.
The day was full of love and happiness, I danced all night and it was such an amazing day.
A few takeaways:
– the Friday wedding: we actually had an amazing guest turnout. However, everyone is tired from working on Friday and by ten thirty (way past my bedtime anyway lol) everyone was gone. We had the dj paid until eleven and when I saw that I was the only one in the reception room, I shrugged, and hit the dance floor by myself lol. I was having so much fun, and the dj came out and danced with me for a few minutes.
– we had a bridal room set up for the kids with a tv and DVD player for after dinner if the kids wanted to relax with my fiancé’s daughter and her friend, but the kids actually had a blast and didn’t use the room at all. We paid the teenage sitters to hang out with no kids in the room, easiest job ever 😂😂
– post wedding let down: my anxiety makes me want to prepare for any and every emotion that I’m going to feel so that I can be prepared. I was worried that I would be sad when the day was over. But I wasn’t. At all. The day was so perfect and everyone was so happy that I never wanted to do it again, it would never be as good as it was that day.
I have lived a really rough life, but over these past few years, I feel like I’m finally home. I’m exactly where I’m meant to be and I’m so happy with the life that we are building.
Our ceremony space:
The room was flipped for the reception
My pumpkins and Friday the 13th black cats!!
The cake, raspberry swirl with raspberry filling and buttercream frosting, yummmm
As we were announced
Our toddler stole the show. In the videos that my sister took of the procession (we don’t have the video from the videographer yet) you can hear a collective “awwwww, omg…!” and one very hilarious, very loud mans “she’s gorgeous, oh, my, GODDD!”. I still haven’t figured out who it was but it cracks me up whenever I hear it!