- 7 years ago
SO went golfing this morning… he hasn’t been in years and I know he had a blast, which is awesome. But what did I do all day? A load of dishes, load of laundry, played w/ the doggies, and edited photos for “our” photography business. He does go on shoots with me and is an amazing photographer, but I’m the one that schedules all appointments, does all the e-mail and ALL of the editing, computer work, etc. And we both have full time jobs too.
On top of this, it seems he is just in general… allergic to housework. LOL. He will do things when I ask… he put leftovers up last night and the sheets back on the bed out of the dryer, but only after I gave him a tiny guilt trip about everything I do. I also take care of all our finances, so I just feel like sometimes he lives this care-free-happy-go-lucky adult life while I’m stuck with all the responsibilities.
It’s like he can only help when I ASK him to, but dang… can’t you just do it without me having to ask!? Sheesh. I kind of blew up tonight when he went to bed at 9:30 after a day of drinking, golfing (8 am – 4pm!), and just lazing around the house afterwards. He went to bed and I knew I would be up late editing photos.. and the house needed picked up so I was a child and slammed cabinet doors while putting dishes away. Not the best thing I could do, but.. I was just really overwhelmed and p.o,’d… and well frankly, jealous of his lack of having to “worry” about anything. And yes, I even cried. Ugh… it just all of a sudden hit me I guess.
Next month, we have 3 wedding shoots and 12 portrait sessions. We’ve NEVER been even close to this busy (just started the business in December). I am so incredibly thankful, it’s a blessing we’re this busy.. But on the other hand, I don’t even know how to mentally prepare myself for how busy I will be. We have zero free weekends, and there will be a lot of 12-14 hour days sitting in a computer chair.. straight from work to working at home. . Gahhh… I wish I could just quit my job and be a stay at home girlfriend doing photography! 😛