- 5 years ago
- Wedding: May 2013
It’s a week and a half away from my wedding, and also the day I will say goodbye to all of my family and move two states away to TX.
My Fiance also originally from CA, has already been living there so he has had some time getting used to being away from his family. I, never having lived outside of southern California, I am absolutely excited to live and start my life in a new place, have better teaching job opportunities, and being with my LOVE, but as the time approached, I started getting more and more nostalgic about it all. Anywhere I would go, I wondered when I would be coming back again, seeing the mountains and going to the beach, are somethings that I definitely took for granted, but now as I prepare for my big move I can’t help but feel nervous. Nervous about a new place, a new city, new people, new home, and well, new everything! Sometimes I feel like such a big baby but all my life is here, I have so many memories here.
Despite my little moments of sadness, I have been managing quite well… So I thought. FI is flying home (CA) tomorrow night, and I am SO excited to see him, I am so ready for our LDR to be O-V-E-R, but as I began to pack and go through my room, I got really upset, began to cry and tell Fiance over facetime how I was a little scared about living so far and how I don’t really know ANYONE out there! (my freakout moment)… I have been avoiding packing for sooo long because for one I have A LOT of stuff, and two, I knew it was going to tug on my heart strings a little. Luckily it was only a few minutes because, I did not want my mom to see my crying, because then she would start crying and it would be a big ol’ MESS!!! HA!
The funny part is that it’s not that I’ve never lived away from home, I actually moved out after High School to go to school and I LOVED IT! I move back home due to family problems shortly after graduating, and have been here since. The big difference now is that before I was only 45 miles away, if I really wanted to come home, I could, but being in TX 1300 miles away is huge. I’m trying to be strong for my Mom, because I know she is having a hard time dealing with me moving so far away, but I was proud of how well she was tonight as she helped me pack up. I just hope day of wedding people don’t start crying because I’ll cry! I honestly didn’t expect to be this emotional about this, but it just hit me!
Anyone else experiencing moving away or out of home, and are feeling happy but sad to be moving away from family?