@LadyCupcake: As someone who struggles with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Panic Attacks, I can totally sympathize with you. I’m in Congative Behavioral Therapy because I didn’t want to be on medications, in fact, I simply had a panic attack over the possible side effects of my medication.
My episodes range from debilating to disruptive, as sometimes all I can do is huddle in a little corner like a frightened child. Luckily, most of the time my heart is simply racing and I feel anxious. Literally anything can trigger this. Mostly the things that trigger it are things that my mind perceives as a threat or a danger to me, when in reality these things are simple life problems, such as finding the correct street to turn down when going to a Dr. Appointment, or having to make a phone call to a person you’ve never spoken with before.
From what my Dr. explained, the disruptive episodes (where I can still function, though I feel paniced) are actually anxiety attacks. A panic attack is where I am non-functioning. Where I am literally freaking out and cannot do anything, as I feel my world is ending.
Which one sounds more like what you’re experiencing? Do you feel like your world is ending or more like how you feel when you’re getting ready for an interview/test/etc? Do you feel anxious or paniced? I ask because this will help me help you. When I feel anxious, I sit down, calm my breathing, and try my hardest to think rationally. What triggered the anxiety? Is this a reasonable reaction to the trigger? What is it that I fear is going to happen? Lets say it happens, what is the worst thing? I’m not going to die from it. It won’t be the end of the world.
Panic Attacks on the other hand are much harder for me to manage, and I try to do the above when I can think properly. Right now, I rely heavily on Fiance to help me. He’ll talk to me, he’ll be my voice of reason, even when my mind cannot be reasonable on its own.
I absolutely dread when my wedding gets nearer. I’ll likely increase my sessions to 4 times a week, and in fact, I’ve caused myself to have an anxiety attack over worrying over having an anxiety attack. There is no sense in worrying about this. Things will happen, things will go wrong, it won’t be the end of the world. I’ll be okay. I just have to keep chanting this mantra. Heck, just fearing that I might have offended you or that someone is going to fuss about me over this post is causing me anxiety. I’ve got it bad.