Thanks Bees. I definitely feel “strung along” and “led on”. All my interactions prior to the interview were positive and I thought the interview was so so because they were literally asking questions off a piece of paper, and sounded really bored. There wasn’t much room for conversation. I thought it was just the formality that made it seem so so but it sounds like maybe they’d made up their minds.
My husband also mentioned his aunt who was passed over because she was “too expensive” with a Master’s degree, but the person who got that job ended up quitting 6 weeks in and they had to beg her to take over. Goes to show that sometimes you get what you pay for.
Here’s where I am mentally: DH and I have been scouring job listings online, and none of them I’m excited about, like I was with teaching. Bank teller doesn’t exactly sound like an exciting lily pad jump from history teacher. But, good jobs are limited up here because this is a summer vacation spot.
So, rather than potentially have to reschedule summer plans to start a new job, I’m going to tighten my belt until September, and wait for the new school year. I hope that the summer is enough time for the wound to heal, and I can come back to sub here. I am also going to put in to sub at two of those schools that are 30 minutes away. I can get a foot in their doors too, and establish my reputation, and still earn decent money.
It has slowed down our home renovation timeline, but I will keep trying the subbing-to-teaching pipeline.
It has been nice being the stay at home spouse, being able to do grocery runs, cook dinner, clean, and take care of the chickens and the dog. We do benefit in many ways from me being “flexibly employed”.
It’s just a hard pill to swallow because I do love teaching and I am passionate about history. I honestly can’t see myself doing anything else. This is my passion. I won’t give up just yet, but I’ll take some time to grieve this summer before being an aggressively good sub in 3 districts.
Thanks for all the positive words.