Post # 1
In the last year, I have dealt with major betrayal by 3 close friends. I lost all 3 friendships. Because of the events surrounding the loss of friendships, I fell into a depression. I was on medication, but I lost my health insurance and can’t afford it anymore.
I’ve been doing alright being off the meds (its been about 3 months), but I have my good and bad days. Planning has been stressful, and some of those former friendships have reared their ugly heads again just to stir up trouble. All but one of my bridesmaids have been MIA and not supportive of me or the planning. And the one that has been there accused me today of not being interested in her wedding (which is 6 weeks before mine)… I talk to her weekly, and I live 8 hours away… I’m honestly doing my best to be there for her, but I guess she has higher expectations of me than I realized.
Its all becoming too much for me to handle. I’m starting to cry all the time again. I always thought that wedding planning would be stressful, but fun. I don’t know what to do…
Post # 3
@raekae: I’m so sorry to hear this. I’ve been through depression (briefly) and I can’t imagine what it must be like with the stress of planning. I would put aside the planning aside for tonight, take a bubble bath and relax however you can (minus alcohol since it’s a depressant).
It isn’t right that people are stirring up drama. Have you told the remaining bridesmaid about your troubles with depression. If you have, then she is being incredibly unsupportive. Have you talked to your fiance about any of this?
Post # 4
I am SO sorry.
Is there ANY WAY for you to get money for meds? Any way at all? They are so important for people who suffer from depression! (speaking from experience here) No one should have to feel like a person does when suffering from depression, that limping through life but not really living.
Honestly, I think you need to fix your depression some way some how. When that problem is solved, you will be able to handle the punches life throws at you.
Also, if you have your depression under control you will have more energy to give to others who need you as well.
I think it should be your primary focus. Perhaps consider some natural remedies.