- Sweet Maple
- 9 years ago
- Wedding: April 2012
Ok so me and my fi have been together for a year now. We have been fighting sooo much that we took a break it was becoming unhealthy fighting where his mom ad friends dont think we should get back together. After weeks of a beak he asked me back.I am not one of those girls to be blind and blame herself, and it was a two way street but its true i was getting crazy and got mad over the stupidest things, so ya he needed to work on things but i have pushed bfs in the past away cuz of my behavior, anyway when we took our break i took alot of time to think ok i cant be smoothering he spends every day w m he does need his friends and i cant get mad at thios or that. I do have a wonderful man who always shows me he love me no matter what i really dropped the ball. Our months of fighting really got to him and became very unhealthy or us he was so wrapped up everyday w me and no one else and my family he losthis friends uz he chose to b w me and when he was deciding to go out w them i was freakin out n e way after a break and lots of thinkin he did ask me back
so far its been good but we have been going really slow like starting all over and i cn see onis fac and a lil of his actions he is scared to put alll his heart in it he even admitted he is scared we will go back to how we were he said there was may nights and days he was stressed out over us and lostsleep and he is ocd lol but realy he is so him stressing is wayy worse than me stressing and he was stressing bout not havin a job his car being taken from his dad im going back to his moms and i was supporting he hated it and anted to be a man but i loved him now he doesnt want n e help and said that he doesnt want to get in a serious long term realtionshio yet cuz there are one things we need to work on its onl been one week since we got back together so far so good and i dont have anger if he doesnt call or text. He actually had his phone off for a few days due to non payment he called me when he said he woulkd but i was ok w us not being able to communicate w each other and not freak what he was doing so in a way it wasa good test for us but when las night when he said that about him not knowing if he wants to commit to something long term and he doesnt want to be all about us and get caught uo and loose sight of his life like a job car and stuff again throws me off! HE called me later and said i love u and i do see us in the future i am so sorry for what i said i love u blah blah. I know he called and he was sincerly sorry and i know he is scared to go back to old ways but do i not freak out and like he said we just have to take iot day by day and not worry too much or we will get paranoid or is this something i should b worried about. I know we do have alot of ground and hurt to get over and i am on the same page but does this sound like we r really on the same pg?