- 7 years ago
- Wedding: July 2011
My wedding day was the happiest day of my life. I relaxed in the morning, went to the salon, drank mimosas, and had a great time with great friends getting ready for my wedding. My hair and makeup was FLAWLESS.
I arrived at my wedding, and shed a few tears because I could not believe that all those vendors were there for ME. It was MY day, and I finally understood what the whole “it’s your day” saying was about.
I seriously cannot explain how blissful the entire day was.
There were a few snafus, but I didn’t think twice about them. I was quite possibly the most infatuated, beautiful, satisfied, and whole woman I have ever known.
Enter: 6 months time.
Two very good friends of mine are now engaged. Wedding talk is all around, not to mention the flaunting of their new sparklies. Sparklies, that I can admit look EXACTLY like mine, even though I picked one of the most unique halo settings I have sver seen. AND, they made sure to go up about .5 carats. Hmmm, great.
I digress. I am finally over that bit, I just had to keep saying to myself that I am wearing the original and imitation is the best form of flattery. Blah. Whatever.
Anyway, back to the whole wedding situation.
My now husband and I paid for our entire wedding. It was beautiful, but I definitely had to settle on some details. I didn’t think twice about them, until now.
Now… that I have these two close friends with parents who have deep pockets.
sighhhh. Confession: I am worried that their weddings are going to be so glorious it’s not funny. Things I could not even dream about looking into will just be another detail added to their wish list. Pathetic, right?
SO many emotions. Envious? Yes, I guess so. And it’s so ugly, and not like me. I have never once been envious of anything or anyone! Depressed? YES, I wish I knew then what I know now, so many things could have been different.
Just writing this post is making me feel so unbelievably shallow it’s not funny, so I think I’m done for now. More to come later.
Please don’t be too harsh! 🙁