- 5 years ago
- Wedding: April 2013
So my weight has gone up and down a few times since I hit puberty – probably about 40 pounds difference between heaviest and lightest. Generally, I get very motivated to lose weight, and I am very good at sticking to my diets, so I lose the weight I want to lose in about 2-3 months. Then, slowly, over the next 2-3 years, I gain it back. This has happened to me about 4 times in the last 10 years, the last time being now, to get ready for my wedding.
I’ve been eating about 1200 calories a day and trying to go to the gym at least every other day. Since mid December, I have about lost all the weight I really wanted to. I still have a little extra weight, but I feel like I’m back down to a reasonable size (instead of pre diet when I was starting to feel like a giant fat cow). I will definitely be continuing my diet plan in the remaining 4 weeks until my wedding, so I will probably lose a few more pounds at least.
My concern is, what happens after the wedding? The most shocking thing about this diet (more so than any of the other times I’ve been through this, which is weird) is that I’m realizing how difficult it truly is to eat normally without that actually becoming overeating.
Like for example – if we go out to dinner to a restaurant that serves bread, that’s 300 extra calories right there. A glass of wine or two is an extra 200… mixed drinks or girly drinks even more than that! Sometimes it’s late or rainy and I really don’t want to go get dinner… pizza delivery? 800 calories for two slices. Some of my favorite restaurant meals (and I’m not talking about double cheeseburgers and fried chicken, I’m talking about stuff that sounds fairly innocent) have over 1000 calories by themselves!! And so on and so on…The shocking thing isn’t that I gained weight, it’s that I hadn’t gained more!
And yet, I keep saying how much I can’t wait to be off this diet and eat “normally” again. But I know if I let that happen, I’m just going to start gaining weight again, and I really don’t want to keep going through this. But I feel like my motivation to eat healthy is only there because of the wedding coming up. Once it’s over, I don’t know how I will stay motivated and I’m afraid I’m going to slip right back into my old habits.
Bees who lost weight for their weddings – did you have this happen to you too? Did you just gain it back? Bees who didn’t… how do you stay motivated? I have such trouble with this. I know I should want to stay sexy for my husband, I should want to be able to wear all my cute clothes… but it’s still tough to make that translate into giving up my desserts or my alcohol or my cheese.