- 4 years ago
- Wedding: July 2014
Okay so next week I go dress shopping, and in about a month we’ll be doing our engagement photos. As excited as I am for both of those things, I am starting to have anxiety.
I’ve recently lost about 20 pounds, but would like to see another 10 pounds gone. Not for the wedding necessarily (of course that’s a bonus), but because I want to just feel better and healthier.
Anyway, I’m freaking that I’m going to have a miserable time dress shopping because I’ll feel too fat, or that I’ll hate our engagement photos for the same reason. I’ve been obsessing over finding the perfect, most flattering outfit for the photos, but am scared that I won’t find anything I look good in.
I know that I’m technically at a healthy weight for my height, but I’d rather be at the lower end of that “healthy weight” range. It doesn’t help that I’m wavering between a size 6 and size 8, and FI is like…… super, duper skinny without an ounce of body fat. In pictures I always think I look big standing next to him.
FI of course is amazing and tells me how wonderful I look, but I know he would tell me that no matter what I looked like. He tells me I’m beautiful when I’m sick and vomitting, lol, so I feel like I can’t trust him to give me an unbiased opinion. I just feel like there’s so much pressure as a bride to be super skinny, and that just isn’t ever going to be my body shape. I feel like I’m caving under social pressure, and that just aggravates me to no end!
I guess I’m just venting or maybe hoping that someone can relate….