- 3 months ago
- Wedding: September 2017
I don’t have much to add except to address the guilt. Feelings are not in themselves good or bad. They just are what they are. And who wouldn’t feel scared at the prospect of handling two babies at once?
Just wanted to do an update… I have felt better. I do get moments where I get angry and also depressed. Darling Husband agrees that it happening has decreased but still says I get angry very fast over things he wouldn’t think would warrant it. Anyways I had my doctors appointment and my doctor said he isn’t worried. He said that medicine and seeing someone to talk it is definitely an opinion but the fact that it isn’t every day and all the time that he wouldn’t push me to do either. He said unfortunately with carrying twins it is true that you have twice the hormones and that it can come in waves. None of this means I will have postpartum depression once the babies come. He said the fact that I’m working, overwhelmed with the thought of twins and raising an 18 month all while pregnant with hormones, anyone in my shoes would be feeling the same as me. Obviously if anything changes and I start feeling worse or this happens all the time or I do just want to talk to someone to call him. This did make me feel better.
Oh mama, give yourself some grace. Don’t feel guilty, often we don’t have control over our feelings. I went through two back to back miscarriages with no living children, my husband and I finally conceived not long after and i am currently 40+1 waiting for her arrival! There have been many times during this pregnancy that I have felt empty and depressed and I also felt guilty because I finally had what I wanted so badly. I know exactly how you feel. Hormones are no joke and they are very real. Take those days and be sad when you feel sad. Lay in bed when you need to be in bed. Acknowledge the feelings and allow yourself to feel them in that moment and don’t suppress them. That helped me so much and it eventually got so much better. Absolutely chat with your doctor too if you feel that’s best. Give yourself some grace mama <3