- 5 years ago
- Wedding: September 2014
I know some of you might call me petty or ungrateful, but that’s not what I’m looking for here. I just want some advice. My birthday is coming up next weekend. This was my original “take action” date. I wasn’t going to leave him, but I was going to move out. I never told him this. I didn’t want to give him an ultimatum. About two months ago he gave me his own timeline and said he would propose before the end of the year. We’ve been together over 3 years. I figured I could give him till the end of the year since I’ve waited this long.
I kind of hoped (but was never led to believe) that he would propose before my birthday. I know he’s been looking at rings, but I do not think he has one. I’m about 90% sure he doesn’t have one. I saw him on the computer last night looking at cargo nets for my car. I have a feeling that that is going to be my present. I would like a cargo net, don’t get me wrong, but seeing him look at them and thinking that that was going to be my birthday present almost made me cry.
I know I should be grateful and happy about anything I get, but I just have this feeling in the pit of my stomach that I can’t shake. I’m worried that when I open the present on my birthday that I’m just going to break into tears. I’m feeling really depressed right now.
I’m sure some of you have dealt with this before. Is there anything I can do to forget about it? I really want to be happy about anything he gets me, but I know I won’t be able to. I’m tired of feeling like this.