- 5 years ago
- Wedding: June 2014
I submitted my applications for vet school a few months ago and expect to hear back in december. I’m also graduating this fall, getting married in July (yay!) and trying to save up for the wedding + moving costs (realistic but kind of rough).
I am STRESSED OUT. I don’t really know why but I’m having a really hard time processing everything. It’s not a dire situation or anything, everything is going great so far, but I’m just feeling overwhelmed.
Worst of all I am having all these thoughts of lying to everyone about getting into vet school – to just tell everyone I did not get in to any of the schools so that I can stay here for a year, just work an ok job, save up a bit more, enjoy the outdoors (I live in the mountains) and do things I may not have a chance to do for a long time after vet school starts (since I’ll be so busy). Like, learn the mandolin and go on crazy adventures and travel a bit. And then apply next year. I do really badly want to go, I’m just super overwhelmed and although I feel I need a break I don’t want to lose my ambition momentum and disappoint myself and everyone. Also I don’t know why I feel like lying is the solution, maybe because I am a very proud person and want an excuse so it doesn’t seem like I’m giving up. But obviously I can’t fool myself.
School sucks. :'( I feel like this is relatively a really silly problem but I need to get it off my chest anyways.