- 6 years ago
Today is FI’s brother’s rehearsal lunch and church rehearsal. They have been going back and forth about it for the last week and a half when they told us they were going to have a rehearsal. I took today off work about a month ago because I had a feeling it would be last minute and/or we would have running around to do the day before the wedding (tomorrow.) I mentioned last week how it was kind of frustrating that they were doing the rehearsal in the afternoon and with not much notice (it’s about an hour and a half away from us and further for other people).
Side note: Our wedding got postponed because of my parents separation which is happening right now and because of finances, my parents had offered to pay for most of our wedding in January 2013 and now that 1/3 of it has been paid to the reception hall, they cannot afford to do the final payment so we are waiting on the coordinator to call us back with some options for other dates later on in 2013. This has me stressed to the max for obvious reasons but also because I have to make sure other vendors can do the new date and hopefully not charge more, etc.
We got in the car earlier then necessary to head to the rehearsal lunch and grabbed a coffee and started on our way when Fiance forgot he had to grab something from home. There was traffic on the highway and I literally suggested, “Hey you could take ____ exit instead maybe it’ll be faster??” and he snapped at me. And started going on about how he’s been short with me lately because I made a big deal about the rehearsal and that I was being uptight and how I don’t even have to go. I was just silent. I had no idea what to even say to that. He apologized after and said he was sorry and that he didn’t want it to come across as I shouldn’t go to the rehearsal but just that it wasn’t mandatory if I didn’t want to. To which I just told him quietly that I honestly didn’t really want to go at all because I don’t know anyone.
We got home and he grabbed what he needed and I just said again that I didn’t think I was going to go if that was fine with him and he started apologizing like crazy and then said he would call his brother and tell him he couldn’t go either. We went back and forth for about 15 minutes and then I just told him I would go if it would mean he was going, because he can’t miss the rehearsal for his brother…his dad isn’t even going so he really has to. And then, because apparently we were being childish today, he’s like I don’t want to drag you there now because you look like you’ve been crying and I don’t want you to be mad at me.
So end of story which was long, sorry about that….is that he went by himself and just said, Okay see you later instead of the way he usually says goodbye and now I feel like he’s going to be mad at me for not going with him. I feel stupid for making a big deal out of it but I am just so beyond stressed and frustrated with everything that is going on outside of this with my family and my parents and our wedding that I had my heart set on that I just feel like I can’t deal with anything.