senoritafancypants: I don’t think what you’re experiencing is uncommon. I’m a cradle Catholic, so I haven’t experienced what you’re talking about first hand, but it doesn’t surprise me.
The Catholic Church is heavily based on tradition, and for Catholics, the spirituality comes from that deep seated tradition. That is very different from other Christian-based religions, where the spirituality is closer to the surface and seems more tangible. I’m not sure if I’m making sense, because it’s very hard to explain.
It will be very rare if you experience that fired up, set me loose, take on the world spirituality in a Catholic Mass that you experience in other Christian churches. That’s because the foundations are different. The Catholic Church doesn’t fire you up like that. You have to reach deeper into yourself, because the Church believes spirituality comes from the soul, not from something external.
I think this is VERY hard for someone coming from another faith to understand at first, because it is so different from what they’ve always experienced. One isn’t better than the other… I think it just requires a little more personal work to get that feeling for spirituality in the Catholic faith.
For me…When I attend Mass, and I receive the Body and Blood of Christ, I feel a deep spiritual connection (even harder to explain). But it wasn’t always that way. For a long time, it was just part of the Mass routine… stand now, kneel here, sign of the cross, shake hands, etc. I’m not sure what made the change, but something change in me. For some reason, it all miraculously felt different. I love the feeling I get when I go to other Christian churches, but I don’t feel that deep spiritual connection that I feel from attending Mass.
I guess what I’m trying to say is what you’re feeling isn’t uncommon. But be patient, be a part of what you’re learning, try to embrace it, and that feeling of spirituality will come.