- 8 years ago
Firstly I’m pretty happy that a place like this exists. I’ve been having an inner battle since the day I realised I wanted to marry my S/O, the day it hit me that he was so, so right for me. The only person I’ve been able to talk about it to is … well … him … and as a result I think he’s got overwhelmed by it all. He told me that he doesn’t want to overthink it because he has an awful habit of doubting his decisions – any decision – and talking himself out of it. Like me, he is an over thinker.
Before me, he came out of a relationship with a person who was emotionally and physically abusive to him. He had proposed to her – he got himself trapped by promising it early on. This relationship ended in tears so he is taking it very cautiously with me regarding this topic. I was in a very similar relationship before him too … only he and I were never engaged. He has told me he WILL be proposing, just not yet, because he doesn’t want to rush it at the wrong time only to be broken up in a year and not even speaking. Basically, what I take that to mean is that when he does it, he wants to do it right.
It doesn’t help though that his little sister got engaged recently. I really couldn’t help but feel bitter, as the pair of them are very young still, which I know isn’t fair to think. I am finding it so difficult to wait as I feel incredibly ready. I tend to overthink it myself so much that I convince myself it isn’t even going to happen.
Mainly I’m just hoping and wishing and praying.