It sucks to feel this way, and I totally understand you, but it does get better. You’re still young yet. You’re just getting frustrated.
I met and started dating my ex-husband about ten years ago, when I was 21. Married at 27, separated and filed for divorced at 28 (a long story in itself, but suffice it to say I didn’t want the divorce). I was devastated.
Discovered I was disgusted with the current state of dating (it’s all about the text game, and many men seem to lack any follow-through). Met a guy who seemed to be wonderful, would go out of his way to do considerate things and make a show of affection and attentiveness, but who turned out to have much different relationship values than me. Among other issues, he concealed the fact that he had been (and was still on paper) married AND that an ex-gf was claiming he was the father of her child and suing him for child support.
I share this with you because I think I know where you are with this stuff, and I know it’s hard.
After breaking up with that bf, being 30 by that time, I reconnected with the guy who is now my bf. We have a long history, we were close friends in high school and college, dated briefly and casually in college, then drifted apart. We both knew back then we loved each other, but didn’t want to commit to long distance. And then I met my (ex)husband and all of the above happened. But now we’ve come full circle and we both actually feel it was better that we spent time having other experiences rather than staying together when we were younger. He is now ring shopping.
(And you know what? My current bf felt EXACTLY the way you do about dating. He was on dating apps and websites and had a string of terrible dates and was getting discouraged.)
Not saying you’ll necessary reconnect with someone from the past, but as the saying goes, we all have to kiss a few frogs, and sometimes the right person comes along at the wrong time.
Hang in there. 🙂
PS- YOU HAVE STANDARDS, and that is huge. You have boundaries. I am so happy to hear you are moving on from men who treat you poorly or unfairly. I stayed with the first bf after my divorce for far too long, tolerated the shady crap far too long. Not tolerating crappy relationships is an excellent reason to be alone, seriously.