- 6 years ago
- Wedding: November 2012
Today I am 9dpo, and I took a test yesterday (bfn). One of my friends announced her second pregnancy. My infertility blues, (that had only been strengthened by my high school best friend announcing her pregnancy) finally spilled out so I just googled “hope quotes” to kind of put things into perspective and get myself out of the funk. I found an amazing quote that has quickly become my mantra.
“Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.”-Epicurus
This quote spoke directly to me as a woman struggling with infertility; while it can be really devasting to see that BFN or my AF every month, I have to keep sight on something I did not have before, that is worth its weight in gold and silver; the love of my soulmate.
I think it is natural to be so emotional about TTC, to most it is the next natural step. However, sometimes we just have to sit back and really be amazed at what we have. I never thought that at 22 I would be married with the one I want to grow old with. I value him so much, being with him is indescribable, the best way I can put it is he feels like home. I think I am going to take today, and the rest of this week to really show him how much I love and care for him; he was a dream that came true, he is beyond everything I could have hoped for myself. I hope this helps someone as much as its helped me today.