Um, with slight differences I feel like I could have made this post almost to the last dot! We had to move out of our home in Montana because of family/inheritance problems, and so I had to leave my job and pack up everything…we went and spent a month in Ohio, to see my family, but then our savings was dwindling, so we had to move to AZ where Fiance got a job working for his Dad in an engineering company…well…we moved here in July. It was almost 120 degrees daily. With all the travel, we had been eating a lot of junk. I stay inside out of the heat, havent found a good job that works with our schedule (we have dogs that we cant leave alone too long and fi and I actually want to get to spend some time together) and just have been so depressed with all of this financial/inheritance drama his family has caused over his Mom and Grandmoms death.
I knew I had gained some weight, because my clothes were getting a little more snug, and I hadnt had any motivation. I talked Fiance into getting a scale so we could start to work on ourselves with a visual reminder at least weekly. (he has also gained about 10 pounds)
BUT… I stepped on and have gained 25 pounds. It took me two years to lose that weight working very hard with PCOS….and it only took 4months to put it all back on. I just wanted to cry. So I know how it is to feel like you wanted something to work out, but it isn’t quite working yet, and you have two options.. 1] Let whatever happens, happen. or 2] re-evaluate priorities and make something happen. And number 2 is a LOT, LOT, LOT harder to do. Some days we feel defeated, or at a loss, and trust me I am there with you about half the time right now…I never wanted to be back to this point, and some days I feel like “will I ever be able to come back from this? how?”
You know you don’t need a lecture, you know that you can change things. I think most people who struggle with weight don’t need to be told that they are [struggling]. They look in the mirror and judge themselves worse than anyone else could. But honey you are not alone. And the answer has always been that YES, we can turn it around. You can. I can. Great things always seem harder to achieve, but that doesn’t mean they are impossible. It takes a little more work and determination every day….but you have to hold your head up high, because if you let yourself get too down, the emotional stuff is so much heavier than the physical.
So, right now, I don’t have an inspiring success story. But I offer moral support to you, and remind you that we can get through this. It’s hard, but we aren’t alone. And there are no weekends when you’re making a change in your life. I’m so sorry you are feeling down. I’m sending e-hugs your way, and I hope that your week turns around. Take it easy, but never give up.