- 8 years ago
I’ve posted before about this…the fact that I have to wait until this summer to see if my SO will hold to his promise to propose. But here’s my problem..I’m an emotion mess right now and I don’t know how I can make it to June without seeming like a psycho. I’m doing my best to see normal and put on a happy face but inside I’m a wreck. My main issue is that we are both 30 and I’m so scared that my life is passing me by. Even if we do get married in the next year or so, I’m worried about if I’ll even be able to have children. I’m also comparing myself to others who are already engaged/married or have kids.
To be honest, I wasn’t ready for marriage until a year ago–when I brought up the topic to my SO. And I know he loves me and wants to marry me. I also have a promise from him that this summer will be it (proposal, etc). But how do I cope during this waiting period? How do I stop thinking about the worst possible scenarios? I try to keep busy, etc. but I’m still going crazy. Please help!!!