- 4 years ago
- Wedding: October 2013
This has been an incredibly emotional time for me. I have NEVER had a positive body image. From being tallest in elementary school, to bigger than most in middle school and then trying to prove everyone wrong in high school, my weight and I have been on an emotional roller coaster.
Since I was 16, I’ve been on birth control, and I think I’ve been on a total of 7 different types in that time. Just so you are aware, I’m now 23. I have decided to go off of them to see if this helps my issues.
Ever since graduating high school, every year, I gain about 5-7 pounds I can’t get rid of. I’ll yo-yo but then gain it back, and then a pound or too. I am now at the heaviest I’ve ever been and I’m feeling hopeless. I started going to the gym again about a month and a half ago. I go 5 days a week, and haven’t lost any weight. In fact, guess what, I’ve gained a couple of pounds. This threw me into a tailspin this morning.
I’m 5’7, and 180 pounds. I felt my best when I was about 150. I’d love to be there again, or maybe a little less, but I don’t know how to do it anymore. My husband tries to help but he only knows things from the male persepctive. If anybody has any sort of tips, encouragement or anything, I’d welcome it with open arms because right now I don’t feel like it’s going to get any better.