- 6 months ago
- Wedding: October 2018
In the next couple of weeks I will be handing in my notice at a position in my career which I had thought I would have indefinitely when I first started working.
I will preface this by saying that I do not have children, I do not have any dependents, it’s just myself, my husband, and our two pets.
I know people who work much harder than I do and complain so much less about their jobs- I just can’t understand why I just can’t be happy. I have grown to strongly dislike my job, with the reasons being:
– Very inflexible hours.
– Long shifts (4 eleven hour days)
– high productivity (one 30 minutes break in the middle of the 11 hour shift with the rest of the time being spent with patients 1:1
– High caseload and often bringing work home with me
– Not low pay but fairly low for within my field- currently I work 55-60 hour weeks with a second job so we’re not living paycheck to paycheck
– Low benefits (very little PTO, terrible insurance, etc)
– Very little support from management, unpaid trainings, unreasonable and unrealistic expectations, etc.
-Not a condition of the job itself but of my tolerance- I often get so frustrated at work I find it hard to care. I sometimes leave in tears on the way home due to just the hair pulling overwhelming feeling I have just being there the last 3-4 hours. The work itself is enjoyable but after 6-7 hours of it non stop I literally can’t function- leaving my last few hours of the day completely worthless. I come home and am just as useless- no energy and usually pass out on the couch about an hour after I get home.
Part of me just feels like I’m really lazy- that I just haven’t grown up yet and accepted that this is adult life and I need to just find a better way to deal with it. I know people who work more hours than me- have kids- have so many other responsibilities and are able to handle it- why can’t I?
I have accepted a new position with a salary high enough where I can work just a 40 hour work week. But- I’m 28. I feel like I’ve failed. And of course there’s always fears I’ll find faults with my next job and end up in the same rut. I feel like a spoiled unreasonable child.