- mrs ranunculus
- 6 years ago
- Wedding: June 2012
Forgive me Bees, this is going to be long. I’m just so sad and feeling so lost. Wondering if anyone else who is newly married has gone through major relocation as well…?
Darling Husband and I got married June 2nd, and as much as I love him with all my heart and I know he loves me, these last three months since we got married have been rough.
Darling Husband got laid off less than two months before our wedding which resulted in us having to move from Vancouver B.C. to Austin, Texas. DH and I had been doing long distance while I finished up school in my Ohio hometown (where we got married) and I was SO FREAKING EXCITED to move to Vancouver. We made the choice to give Austin a try because Darling Husband felt there were lots of good jobs here for computer/math guys like him, and also he grew up in Galveston and had a bee in his bonnet to get back to Texas.
As a result of Darling Husband still being unemployed at the time of the wedding, we didn’t go on a honeymoon. At all. Which honestly, is still kind of bumming me out. 3 days after our beautiful wedding, we packed up my car and left. (Even just a couple of days to relax would have been fine by me…)
Well…now we are in Austin, and if I can be perfectly honest, I f-ing hate it here so far. I am SO homesick for my family and close friends I left back home in Ohio, I feel isolated, lonely and like I don’t fit in. The weather here is pretty unbearable and I’ve been eaten alive by the bugs (so much so that I am embarrassed to wear shorts in public because my legs look so horrendous).
The first month we were down here, Darling Husband still was looking for a job. His sister lives here and told us we could stay with her until we had jobs and a place to live, but after less than 2 days she was already dropping hints about how we had overstayed our welcome. Gee…thanks… We found a crappy semi-furnished sublet for a month and luckily Darling Husband got a job and we found permanent housing.
I know I’m very lucky because Darling Husband has a great job that he loves, and we’re renting a beautiful house, and he certainly is being supportive of me trying to figure things out and find happiness, but I just can’t shake the pit of sadness I wake up with every morning in my stomach. I’ve just been feeling so depressed. None of that “newlywed glow” I had dreamed about having. I feel bad for Darling Husband because I’ve just been an emotional wreck – I have about 1 day a week where I just can’t control the crying. I know there has been so much chaos that we are still trying to get settled and into a routine, but it’s just SO HARD.
I think I definitely have the post wedding blues (mostly because we didn’t get any time to just bask in how awesome it all was and it was immediately followed with the immense sadness for me of leaving home) but this relocation is just putting me through the ringer. I got a decent job (but don’t really have much co-worker interaction) and am trying hard to build friendships with a couple new people as well as reconnect with an old friend who moved here as well. I’m just really not a fan of Texas so far (even though I know people say Austin is great) and I feel like I can’t fully express how much I hate it because it will hurt DH’s feelings. (You know, these Texans and their Texas pride…)
Is anyone else out there in the same boat as me? Any tips for getting over hating where you have relocated to?
Thanks for reading! 🙂