- 7 years ago
- Wedding: September 2011
I am feeling sick to my stomach this morning because I got on my computer and opened up a file and the pics of me in my dress were there and I wasn’t excited at all. I looked through the pics of the other dresses I tried on and didn’t feel anything. There was another dress I loved that I keep thinking about, but I look at myself in that dress (which was a size 14 and I’m a 20) and don’t care for that much either. I know that part of it is hating how I look physically and I keep telling myself that no dress is going to change this, but I can’t help thinking I made the wrong choice. I have 2 problems with this, however. One, my wedding is less than 3 months away and two, none of the samples are going to fit me, so I’m never going to get a sense of how a dress is truly going to look on me. When I first went dress shopping back in February, I was basically pressured a bit to order a gown NOW because it could take up to 6 months to come in. My dress came in in about 3 months. I’m kinda pissed because I feel like I would have taken more time to look other places. (I did try 3 dress places and about 25 dresses in my defense, though.) Everyone who sees the pics say I look gorgeous it in, but I don’t FEEL gorgeous. When I put the dress on for the first time 2 weeks ago, I didn’t feel wowed or excited. I felt like crying. I don’t know what to do. Should I secretly go to more stores and see what I think, and hope if I find something they can get it in before my wedding? Or should I suck it up and convince myself to see what everyone else does?
Here’s me in my dress:
Oh, and that’s the other thing, I need to lose weight to fit in it. See how the back doesn’t lace up properly? AND it’s a bit too short! Realistically, I should stick to no more than a 2 1/2 inch heel, but I have not been able to find my dream shoe in something that short!
So, I am freaking out here. What should I do??? Do you guys want to see more pics of the other dresses I tried? (disaster!! My ass squeezed into 14’s! lol)