- 6 years ago
- Wedding: October 2013
Hello Bees.. i need to vent and venting to my friends doesnt help because they dont understand like you bees do =)
Well here it goes. I have been doing GREAT and i mean great with Mr. Bees plan. I dont bring up wedding stuff. I dont go on here when hes around. I go out with my friends( which doesnt help at all bc half of them are engaged and planning weddings so i come home bummed and upset)
So heres where my problem is. My SO and i have been together for over 4 years, Hes an amazing boyfriend and has been supporting me for the past 2 years( our money has been together since about 3 and a half years ago) I quit a good paying job 2 years ago (stupid i know) because i hated it, it was horrible, the boss was a creep and would give me shitty hours even tho i had seniority and should have been working the earlier hours. My SO told me one day ” Quit, id rather you have no job and be happy than work there another day” so i did and couldnt find another job that paid as much. Any way, speed up to about 6 months ago, i got a great job, and I LOVE IT! Then i find out if i take this test( its a pretty intense test) ill get paid alot more and have a permant job. So i study and study and study…..and i PASS the TEST!! woohooo.
Everything is going great and im so happy. Because in my head im thinking well if i get a good paying job hes going to want to propose (considering a few months ago he told me this summer, if i have a good job. which im now doubting) so anyway. He was soo proud of me, he said Im taking you out to dinner this weekend to celebrate my amazing girlfriend. So the weekend came and passed, no dinner..no celebrating, nothing. My coworkers celebrated more then he did. i was so upset, but i didnt say anything, bc he does work his butt off so i figured hes just tired and doesnt feel like going out.
Anyway, I was thinking its all me, the reason hes not proposing is because I dont make any money and hes been paying all my bills for the past 2 years. Well thinking money was the issue is completly wrong apparently because he tells me he wasnt to finance a new motorcycle. I wanted to SCREAM when he told me this…2000 down and 225 a month?!?!?!? UGH!!
So back track a few weekends ago, we went to a bbq at my SO’s close friends house. And he slipped and said that my SO has been saving up for a bike for a while now, and a ring. ( his friend knows me very well, and i think he just said ring to make me feel better)
I dont know what to do, i want to yell at him and tell him im tired of waiting but i dont want to rush him into something if hes not ready ( even though he tells me all the time he cant wait to marry me) Im so upset. I just dont get it. I dont understand how he can go and make a purchase like that and make a commitment to a load payment. All i want to do is marry him. its not about the ring any more,… i dont even want a ring, i just want to know he wants to be with me forever.
I have to add that he is amazing, hes a GREAT boyfriend. We have a beautiful appartment( that we decorated together) Our puppy who we say is our furbaby..and are crazy head over heals in love with each other.
Any and all advice is MUCH appreciated. or if any of u have been in my shoes .. ill take anything and im sorry this is soo long but i needed to get it out before i lost it lol.. i dont want to sound crazy bc i feel like in this post i do haha but i know you bees will understand.