- 5 years ago
- Wedding: November 2014
I went anon for this one…I think my fiance and I are breaking up.
On April 23rd, we’ll have been together 2 years. He’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me. He’s just wonderful. Kind, smart, thoughtful and so loving. The problem is, though, in June or July, it’ll be a whole year since we’ve had sex. A whole year out of our two year relationship.
At first I thought it was me and my libido, (which was actually always pretty strong before this), but now, I know that it’s us. I love him greatly and can’t picture my life without him, but I see him now as a brother, rather than a fiance. I can’t even picture myself walking down the aisle towards him.
We’ve talked about all this. We’re very very open about everything. He’s my absolute best friend, but I need more. I need passion in a relationship. And believe me, I know passion fades, but NOT after one year.
I’m so sad and so scared and so upset with myself and with him that we let it turn into this when we had something great. It’s on my mind 24/7. I just can’t marry him when I feel no passion towards him. None. He’s my best friend and nothing more. We had a great sex life in the beginning and then it literally just died. And though he’s so handsome and in great shape, I just don’t find him sexually attractive anymore.
I guess the reason I’m writing all this is cause I’m wondering if any of you have been here, and how did you heal? Were you able to work through it and end up happy and satisfied, or did you throw in the towel after trying and trying?
I’m just scared to let go. I don’t think I’ll ever find someone who treats me as well as he does. I don’t believe I can have it all. The passion and the best friend. It’s always been one or the other with me. And losing him means losing everything at the moment, since I’m across the country from all my friends and family and I would literally be alone. And I know that’s not a reason to stay, but it’s still frightening.
Advice? Words of wisdom? Hugs?