- 5 years ago
- Wedding: August 2015
I just got engaged to my wonderful fiance, which is a wonderful feeling.
However, I am honestly on an emotional roller coaster because I am estranged from my parents so they have not been and will not be a part of any of the wedding planning process. They do not even know I am engaged I don’t think.
On the whole I am so excited and happy to be marrying the love of my life. He and I have that once-in-a lifetime love that I didn’t een know was possible.
But on the other hand I hate how there is this underlying saddness that I carry around with me.
My mother and I did not get to go wedding dress shopping together. In fact she will probably never see me in a wedding dress ever.
My dad will not be walking me down the aisle. i will be walking myself.
In a way it is like mourning the loss of this idea I always held on to of what my wedding would be like with my family.
I do not wish to reach out to them though. They are completely emotionally destructive people, which is why I don’t talk to them in the first place.
Has anyone gone through anything similar to this and have any advice on getting through it? Sometimes it is just comforting to hear that I am not alone in my situation.