- 5 years ago
- Wedding: January 2014
So… yesterday was my 8th aniversary with my boyfriend. We are living together for almost 2 years and yet… still no ring.
What a cliché, right?
Well… i’m sad, really sad. I mean our relashionship is great, he loves me so much and treats me so well, I love being with him and spend all my time with him, the problem is… I want him to propose!
We have talked about it many times, sometimes he is the one mencioning it, so I know he wants to marry me, so I don’t know what is holding him back! 🙁
As I said yesterday was our anniversary, and I was hoping for a special ocation, I mean 8 years! We have been together since the 11th grade! But no… he left his work at 6 pm and instead of coming home and surprise me, no, he goes to the gym (as he said he would but I thought maybe he was bluffing). And came home as 9 pm, where we ate in 5 minutes and that was it, no dinner out, no sweet card or any gesture at all, and of course, no ring.
So yeah… he notice I was weird, but did he get it? no… course not, he asked me what was wrong but I was so angry that he didn’t know what was wrong that I told him it was nothing. That’s it.
I’m so sad… because he hurts me, a few days ago an engadge couple we know was all commenting on each others pictures “I love my fiancé, bla blá ” and he comes to me and says: “I would love for you to be my fiancé”, and I told him, smilling, “Well… you know what you have to do”, and then he goes and says like: “someday”.
And when he talks about children… dear lord, could he hurt me more?! It’s like seing all the life you dreamed about hanging around you and you can’t do anything to catch it 🙁
Yesterday I tod him “8 years… do you realise that’s been 8 years together?” like just saying without any meaning behind it, I was just pointing it out, and he was all upset and said: “Do you regret it, is that it?”, and that just pilled in my frustration.
Of course I don’t regret it! (I told him that).
I mean, I’m a nice girl, I love him, treat him so right, I cook his dinner and lunch everyday and take care of his clothes and anything he needs, because I want to do does things, take care of him. But then I think (in a more materialistic way) well, he never gave me anything in return, in 8 years I have never ever been close to get a piece of joulery for a birthday or christmas, why would I been expecting a ring?!
He says it’s not the right time for marriage, but I think I deverse it, and makes me sad and hurt that he doesn’t understand that.