- 5 years ago
- Wedding: May 2014
Tomorrow we are putting my brother down. I am my mom’s only child, and her and my stepdad adopted a beautiful dog about 12 years ago. He’s lived a long life, and I’ve spent most of the past couple of days weeping about it (only ugly cried a few times).
I know it’s for the best. He was amazing, but as a black lab + some other stuff, he’s had bad hip problems and has had some problems joining us upstairs to sleep. He came up tonight when I had to lay down, and it made me almost start sobbing, but I’m trying to keep it together so he doesn’t know that today was any different than any other day.
I’m going to miss him so much. I cried into his fur when I found out the first guy I was dating was dating someone else on the side. He nibbled my toes when we first adopted him and my foot was in a cast, tickling me and making me giggle like crazy. He was a great dog. My stepdad trained him perfectly. He was well behaved. My parents used to joke that I would date my dog in human form (and I’m happy to say, my SO is very much like my dog, though not a big, black man… lol).
I’ve been drinking tonight, which I know is ridiculous, but I’ve spent so much time crying tonight, I was just trying to calm myself and get some sleep. On top of this, my finals are next week and I suffer from SAD…
I will miss him so much. He was beautiful, and funny, and dopey and perfect.
Sorry about all the pics. My mom loved taking his picture. These are all within the last month. He is so wonderful and I will miss him so much. I’m trying to not cry anymore, but I know it won’t be easy.